looking for more answers than the world has.
2005-03-15 - and fuck your toothbrush, too
2005-01-19 - apology from the apologetic to the so unseeming unapologetic
2005-01-11 - to resolve
2004-12-10 - no more blame
2004-11-09 - i think i may throw up or celibacy for a 22year old
2004-10-30 - fuck this town
2004-10-30 - -
2004-10-22 - neverever
2004-09-27 - or perhaps this is hedonism
2004-07-07 - floundering
2004-07-07 - floundering
2004-07-07 - floundering
2004-05-31 - games
2004-03-22 - skeered
2004-03-12 - the L word
2004-02-29 - starting out
2004-02-17 - these days
2004-01-20 - winter
2004-01-12 - new semester
2003-11-24 - worried?
2003-11-18 - almost over
2003-11-13 - letter to the lost
2003-10-04 - either and
2003-09-25 - law of reap and sow
2003-09-24 - uncontollable
2003-09-22 - quiet time
2003-09-09 - almost almost almost autumn
2003-09-07 - just a thought
2003-09-03 - trust
2003-08-24 - friendship
2003-08-12 - want
2003-08-03 - sunday drink
2003-07-31 - morning
2003-07-30 - fall
2003-07-23 - backwards
2003-07-15 - part 1:waking up
2003-07-11 - seasonal
2003-06-25 - rock n roll
2003-06-20 - michaela, i didn't forget your birthday, i just don't have a phone
2003-06-12 - 21
2003-05-31 - if you see a man, let us know
2003-05-24 - journal entry
2003-05-06 - rainy days
2003-05-05 - the things i won't do
2003-05-02 - 151-222
2003-04-26 - 222 things to know about me
2003-04-21 - it's better to...
2003-04-14 - the warning
2003-04-09 - sadder than
2003-04-04 - boys and girls (the one you've all been waiting for)
2003-04-01 - bye
2003-03-25 - (a bit stolen from ee cummings)
2003-03-23 - disregard
2003-03-03 - enough
2003-02-24 - i am praying
2003-02-21 - *
2003-02-13 - underground (or the bastardization of andrewcraig's stunning wit)
2003-02-07 - blind
2003-02-04 - -
2003-01-30 - new happy list
2003-01-29 - streetlamp moons
2003-01-27 - detour
2003-01-23 - sweethearts
2003-01-22 - everything nice
2003-01-20 - the things you saw
2003-01-19 - take us to war
2003-01-18 - sundance
2003-01-15 - communion
2003-01-15 - story time
2003-01-12 - my journal
2003-01-09 - love
2003-01-04 - from the hand
2003-01-03 - resolve
2002-12-31 - notice
2002-12-29 - astound
2002-12-28 - crying
2002-12-20 - he was 37
2002-12-16 - unlike the leaves
2002-12-13 - now woman
2002-12-10 - hug
2002-12-06 - imemine
2002-12-04 - crying host
2002-12-04 - new
2002-12-04 - interference
2002-12-03 - colorblind the counting crows
2002-11-26 - we are the pretty ones
2002-11-26 - touchyfeelygood
2002-11-23 - to the creator
2002-11-19 - bad fucking day
2002-11-14 - holding
2002-11-13 - teehee
2002-11-11 - autumn
2002-11-08 - -
2002-11-04 - new kids been around the block
2002-11-04 - wardrobe
2002-11-01 - touch me touch me touch me
2002-10-30 - in the dark
2002-10-25 - -
2002-10-23 - -
2002-10-21 - wisps
2002-10-20 - don't bother
2002-10-14 - turning leaves
2002-10-11 - seduction
2002-10-07 - living
2002-10-02 - fear
2002-10-25 - thank you for being awake
2002-09-23 - -
2002-09-15 - tardiness
2002-08-25 - the ugly truth
2002-08-21 - -
2002-08-12 - grief
2002-08-02 - nothing else to do, so...
2002-07-29 - worthlessness
2002-07-27 - extraordinary
2002-07-09 - technical
2002-07-05 - shine on, you crazy diamond
2002-07-01 - all I do (twice updated in one night..wow)
2002-07-01 - narcissism (did i spell that right?)
2002-05-31 - will she ever learn?
2002-05-14 - everybody leaves
2002-05-07 - breathing, crying
2002-04-29 - moving on
2002-04-24 - lying sack of shit
2002-04-10 - some things i know
2002-03-07 - a still cold death
2002-03-04 - cigarette obsession?
2002-02-26 - pain
2002-02-04 - the newness
2002-02-04 - becoming
2002-01-13 - *
2002-01-08 - drive on
2002-01-05 - new resolution
2001-12-31 - backseat
2001-12-29 - -
2001-12-27 - ho ho ho
2001-12-22 - mindtrap
2001-12-19 - A Prayer From Bored Lips
2001-12-06 - life
2001-11-30 - thoughts
2001-11-29 - sweet nothings
2001-11-13 - when it is almost too much to bear
2001-11-08 - roaming
2001-11-01 - women
2001-10-14 - like sands, right?
2001-10-02 - fall of grace
2001-09-25 - lied
2001-09-21 - a brief escape
2001-08-31 - wall
2001-08-29 - replace these memories, please
2001-08-15 - coming home and finding me
2001-08-10 - caught in the rainstorm
2001-08-09 - old and pale
2001-08-07 - rules for living
2001-08-07 - what if
2001-08-03 - bound here
2001-07-31 - fun to check the mail
2001-07-30 - many many
2001-07-30 - i remember writing this entry
2001-07-29 - mist-like
2001-07-28 - ramblings with a nonsensical ending
2001-07-27 - falling stars
2001-07-26 - living it again
2001-07-24 - erasure
2001-07-24 - rueful
2001-07-23 - as my face fades from blue to normal
2001-07-22 - much too busy for me
2001-07-21 - observation as a server
2001-07-21 - g'nite hon
2001-07-18 - near death experience and 'this dull desert'
2001-07-17 - solid poison
2001-07-17 - ...yet again...
2001-07-16 - your awkward hands, my fragile heart
2001-07-15 - long drive home
2001-07-13 - wear me down
2001-07-12 - woman of god, please
2001-07-11 - the rending
2001-07-10 - amazing god
2001-07-10 - the world hurts my eyes
2001-07-09 - out of bounds in the ink world
2001-07-09 - kind of down poetry
2001-07-09 - heartcycle
2001-07-08 - lost!!!
2001-07-07 - going to ktown
2001-07-03 - you think you notice a change
2001-06-30 - winded
2001-06-28 - writer's block sux!
2001-06-24 - My God..my calm
2001-06-18 - vroom, vroom
2001-06-17 - one of these days
2001-06-16 - latest fear
2001-06-10 - summer night
2001-06-10 - I ring
2001-06-07 - life as it is now
2001-06-06 - Random, yet again
2001-06-05 - Daniel Grant
2001-06-04 - hope
2001-06-01 - this is how it feels
2001-05-31 - wisdom
2001-05-30 - wish on a dying star
2001-05-30 - having time
2001-05-29 - bday and bunny
2001-05-25 - SAVE ME
2001-05-25 - fight for memories
2001-05-24 - reckless
2001-05-22 - state of affairs
2001-05-21 - breaking hearts
2001-05-19 - looking back
2001-05-18 - knowing me
2001-05-18 - do you see me?
2001-05-14 - romance with God
2001-05-09 - my house, my lonliness, my theory
2001-05-08 - lukewarm
2001-05-07 - anticipation
2001-05-07 - unravel
2001-05-05 - heart on a string
2001-05-02 - leaving home for summer
2001-04-30 - fun times!
2001-04-27 - ???
2001-04-27 - a prayer
2001-04-26 - Waiting for shooting stars
2001-04-23 - Rebuilding
2001-04-22 - Randomness
2001-04-21 - John 5
2001-04-19 - Priceless lesson in love
2001-04-18 - My daddy
2001-04-17 - Me a mommy?
2001-04-15 - phone call
2001-04-13 - just a day
2001-04-11 - The Battle
2001-04-09 - Questioning Him
2001-04-08 - before sunrise
2001-04-08 - hypothetical questions at 6 in the morning
2001-04-06 - middle school revisited
2001-04-06 - childhood
2001-04-05 - quand je suis tout seul
2001-04-05 - inadequacy
2001-04-04 - liking me
2001-04-03 - Burn
2001-04-03 - happy me
2001-04-02 - Whoa whoa!
2001-04-02 - Moondust under heaven
2001-04-02 - smoke-filled room
2001-03-30 - Learning about you with Him
2001-03-29 - emotion
2001-03-28 - random nite
2001-03-25 - Making through the Winter
2001-03-25 - Today's blessings
2001-03-23 - my day
2001-03-22 - escaping the studies
2001-03-21 - venting
2001-02-20 - waiting on you
2001-02-20 - why i was gone
2001-02-27 - true love
2001-02-18 - fool
2001-02-13 - learning to forgive
2001-01-30 - you touched me
2001-01-03 - my past creeps up
2001-01-02 - New Year's resolution
2000-12-28 - i need out
2000-12-20 - On death
2000-12-11 - not gonna care
2000-12-04 - Needing Him
2000-11-27 - change
2000-11-21 - a little restless
2000-11-20 - forgiveness
2000-11-19 - broken heart
2000-11-18 - first time
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